Thursday, 6 February 2014

Time to talk

As i'm sure most of you already know today is time to talk day, with the aim of getting people talking about mental health and promoting the very important message that mental illness is not something to be ashamed off. I have and always will promote the fact that there's no shame to having a mental illness yet at the same time i haven't spoken about my own personal battle on here before. I've convinced myself it's because this is a fashion blog and people don't want to be bombarded with serious stuff but truthfully i am scared of being judged or looked down upon.
Today however i've read several blog posts from individuals who have stood up and spoken openly about their mental illness, like Hannah and Lyzi, and you know what? I don't feel any different towards them, if anything i just admire them even more, for  having the courage to bare all and also for fighting the daily battles that they face.

Personally i'm not brave enough to go into all the details yet but i am ready to say that i've battled with anxiety, self harm and depression for more than half my life. They don't make me weaker, if anything they make me stronger, even if it doesn't always feel like it. I completed university despite the daily panic attacks, i force myself to leave the house when all i want to do is hide under the covers and cry, i've sat through endless therapy sessions and doctors appointments when i really didn't want to fight any longer. I'm still here despite the constant battle in my head of whether to carry on any more and i'm not ashamed of that, i'm proud that i haven't given up. It's definitely not easy living with a mental illness but i am lucky to have a family that are trying their very best to help me and one friend in particular who is the most amazing and supportive person in my life. I may still be struggling but things would be a hell of a lot worse if i was going it alone, which is proof that talking and asking for help does make things easier.

So from now on, as much as the thought of publishing this is making my stomach turn, i pledge to talk about my mental illness, because no one should have to hide or feel ashamed of something that they have as little control over as their eye colour. If anyone would like to talk, whether you've been through something similar or just want to promote the time to talk message then feel free to email me or find me on twitter and also if you get the time make sure to take a look at the time to change website....love to you all.
XOXO 

11 comments:

  1. Very brave post to write and I'm so glad to hear you have such a supportive network around you. Thank you for sharing your experiences and talking openly about such an important topic xo

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  2. well done for being honest about your experiences, its a big step in right direction and hopefully you'll feel able to talk about it more in future. xx

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  3. :):)<3 big hugs to you and well done for your bravery and courage x

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  4. Well done on posting this- you're right there's still such a stigma and yet I definitely don't feel any different towards you (quite the opposite even). I feel like most people of our age have had some sort of anxiety issue yet no one really talks about it even though it would of course help, if we're all in the same boat. Glad to hear you're getting support from friends and fam. I had really bad body anxiety when I was 17/18, felt like it was taking over my life! I also had a really panicky horrid start to my current job last April..
    Anyway hope you're having a good day today.Hope to see you in London soon <3 xx

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    1. i know i've spoken to you on twitter since but thank you so much for this comment Rach it means a lot to know people understand/are supportive :) we're definitely due for a meet up soon xxx

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  5. Your So brave, very inspirational :)

    www.myladyboudoir.blogspot.co.uk

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  6. Bravo on being so courageous and coming forward with this hun,its nothing to be ashamed of, I have had anxiety issues in the past and luckily was able to get through it. Its good that you're using this space as a platform to create awareness and a get a discussion going. Hope you have a wonderfully relaxing weekend!

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  7. This post must have been very hard for you to write so well done you! It's nothing to be ashamed of at all, maybe writing it on here might be somewhat therapeutic for you? xxx

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  8. MASSIVE well done on posting this Charlotte! :) I know it would of took a lot of guts for you to post it but you're right..it is absolutely NOTHING to be ashamed of :) keep your head up & keep your heart strong..admittedly yes I did just quote a song to you & yes, I know feel the need to listen to that song..brilliant! :) see I told you I like a blabbering comment..cos I'm just as bad (you won't know about that actually but I did reply to your comment on my blog, I really like to comment back to everyone who leaves me a comment) :) I've only just discovered your blog but I think I'm really going to enjoy reading :) xxxx

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    1. **now feel the need to list to that song...brilliant!
      I really should reread before publishing sorry about that! :)

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    2. **listen infact...gosh.. I do apologise :) xx

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